I’ve been handed a reality check

I need to be more positive! I’ve been a debbie downer lately and that stops right now!

Part of being healthy is having a positive and healthy mind. I’m going to start to look on the bright side of life! I love being happy and I need to find happiness again!

So, I’m going to share with y’all something that makes me happy!

Wishes at the Magic Kingdom. This is part of my happy place!

7 more pounds gone

And i’ll weigh 290. I haven’t weighed that in 4 years. Lol. Its what my license says. It’ll be true soon. OHHH and when I turn twenty one, ima tell the person helping me at the MVA to change my weight since it’ll be LOWER than 290. I got this shit.

undressedskeleton:

(via losingit712)

I fucking love watermelon

My parents bought a watermelon a week or so ago, and since I was in my funk I didn’t feel like cutting it up! I asked my mother to do it, but shes just as lazy as me! lol!

TODAY I cut up this ginormous watermelon! After filling 7 various sized containers I’m finally done! (It only took me 45 minutes or sooo! Lol, made THREE trips to the compost bin to dump the rinds)

Now I’m excited for watermelon. THIS is what I LOVE about the summer season!

(Oh side note, I was going to go to the store to get food for dinner tonight, but since my tires on my car are bad I now need to save $800 to get new ones. DA FUQ. Its ruining my plans for DISNEY.)

Feeling the love!

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   thiseskimoisgettingfit replied to your post:I have been on this journey for a year now…

   Omgsh girl keep going you have done amazing so far! You should be ridiculously proud of yourself, because there are so many other people who didn’t take that risk of bettering their life. It’s hard, but you’ve come so far!! :))

Thank you so much!! :)

Side note! I’ve gotten a lot of replies to some of my personal posts! I DO read them and I’m very thankful for everyone who is following me on my journey and motivating me to do better!

I have been on this journey for a year now…

I started back in May of 2011.

My starting weight was 325.5 pounds.

I’ve been through A LOT this past year. A lot doesn’t even begin to cover it! I’ve been up, I’ve been down, I’ve been the same. But have I really? No.

I’ve learned so much this past year. I started to understand my body and how to treat it. This journey has definitely been a roller coaster ride. Although I love roller coaster, this one wasn’t that fun!

Today I weigh 297. YES I lost a pound. After weeks of eating poorly. I finally found the strength to continue back on the right track.

28.5 pounds gone in a year doesn’t seem like much, but looking back on how far I’ve come, Its a lot. I’ve gotten myself out of the 300’s and that’s a fantastic feeling!

Words can’t describe how I felt when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw that number. Yesterday, I was just about done with everything and today I wake up to this. 297. Wow.

This has definitely given me new hope. Now its time to go be the best I can be.

itty-bitty-steps asked: A note on the note I left you: I've been following you since you got reblogged on B&Aweightlosspics, and I know you got tons of comments about how well you had done and how great you looked. Seems like since then, your motivation has gone down. Why? b/c you've been lulled into a feeling that you have accomplished a goal, when really, you're not there yet! Yes, the encouragement is nice, but throw it away & remind yourself that you're not done losing weight & that you still want it!! GET IT! :)

This is such a true statement. I think I need to get my priorities straight and start making monthly, weekly, and daily goals for myself. Without them I’m nothing. Right now my goal board says “295” I see it every morning. BUT I don’t think about it. I need to start thinking about it! Thank you for the message! :)

This month has been so shitty for me

I just feel blah. The scale hasn’t gone up or down. I haven’t been trying at all. I’ve been eating so bad.
I’ve lost all motivation.

I need to find my grind again.

Fucking three months until I fly. I know at this point things wont be what I expected. I fucking hate myself for putting everything on the back burner. I’ve been trying to bury all my real feelings in fear of getting ridiculed again.

Yes, I know im a lazy fuck, reminding me wont help me change.

I don’t understand why I don’t want this. I do, but I don’t. My mind is all jumbled right now. I guess I just feel so content right now. I don’t acknowledged how big I really am. I need a swift kick in the ass or something.

Im working more and focusing on my vacation next year. I should be focusing on my trip to Louisiana, because that’s a big reason as to why I need to lose weight.

Side note, if I get hate from this…im done. I’ve gotten some hate before, and it fucking sucks. I don’t know how some of you put up with it. I came on Tumblr for encouragement and motivation, not to be told I fucking suck and such.